It has begun. We've been on the rollercoaster of parenthood for 4 months now. Most of the time if we stop and think about it, we know we're moving right along, but it isn't until sudden drops, climbs, twists and turns that we actually realize things are changing. As Justin put it, "Yesterday started a long line of things I'm going to miss out on because of work." Just like on a rollercoaster the speed, twists, drops and heights can be exciting, thrilling and all you ever wanted, but at the same time they can be dreaded, sickening and even scary. Now I know my child is only 4 months old and so what can really be to dread, make you sick and scared right now? Nothing that at the same time isn't thrilling and exciting. Watch this video of our little sweetheart, Jocelynn.
The first time my back was turned so I missed it and turned around to find her on her back instead of her stomach as I'd left her. I couldn't believe it so I put her right back on her stomach and that's where the video came in.
She's growing up. She's still my cuddly little baby who will snuggle with me and fall asleep in my arms. She's still my happy girl who kicks her legs and smiles to show she is excited to see me and tries to talk and laugh with me. She's her daddy's girl who giggles when he comes into the room and interacts with him like no one else. She's my little one with the most expressive and captivating eyes I've ever known. But she is growing, as she well should and as we honestly want her to.
I can't help but enjoy the milestones she is crossing because they ARE exciting and are taking her and us along with her into more of who she really is and is capable of being. But sometimes I just want to stop the ride and stay in this moment a little while longer. Joce has a lot of growing to do and many more milestones to accomplish before she even starts school and a whole new part of the ride begins. Even when that does Justin and I will always be on it, experiencing every twist, climb and drop with her, never really knowing if we're going to be thrilled or saddened by it, but probably always a little of both. Sad because we're in love with who she is now but thrilled because of who she is becoming. Either way though, it's a ride we're glad we got on and are so blessed with an incredible little one to be experiencing it all with.
